Jealousy is my Rivalry

Ok, so... I have this little problem. The only REAL problem associated with it, is that this little problem i have had... it gets thrown into some HUGE issues. I get jealous. I think everyone gets jealous, but I mean I get JEALOUS. Sweaty palms, frantic breathing, nausea, anxiety... I mean the whole nine yards. I don't like that i have this problem, and for the last year and six months it really hasn't been an issue, until now. Its like everytime I catch her texting him, or talking to him on facebook, or anything i freak out. Not at her, most of the time, but on the inside. I bottle it up until i explode. When i explode, its not pretty. I wish i could control it like i was able to for this past year. I guess that's something that i'll have to work on, but man... I freakin' hate it.
well, good luck in the new year. I wouldn't bother making a resolution, because we all know it wont hold.

And the trees began to fall...

Have you ever wanted events to turnout differently, and then when they do, still not be happy with the results? Have you ever been so selfish that nothing will sooth your aching soul and no one will ever complete your other half? Have you ever been so... just... down in the dumps knowing that you're supposed to live alone for the rest of your life, but still you lead this perfectly amazing girl on to believe you know what you want out of life? All i have to say... don't let yourself fall to that point. Just... don't.

you know what i hate... pt.1

you know what i hate...


is when people cut you off before you're able to finish a sentence. I could be telling someone that i'm killing their mother--- and then they'll cut me off. But what they didn't realize is, i was killing their mother because she was about to set all of their shit on fire and that she made endeavors to end my life as well.
When I tell someone that i will give them a ride somewhere, i fully intend on doing so. I'm not the type of person to offer a ride and then leave them stranded somewhere. If i have other things to do before I give that ride, then i believe that is my business to finish, because the plans were made prior to the question of rides. I will execute my first plans and then go back and finish my other business (that being the ride) and then all will be good... but people that cut me off before my sentences are finished wouldn't know that. They wouldn't know that i'm an ok person who likes the little time spent with people who i don't know very well. I like to get to know someone slowly, learning little things at a time, therefore i like hanging around just about anyone... but people like that... i don't know. They tick me off a bit.

i'm done. =)

The Dynamic Duo

There's nothing more that i'd rather see
than you right here oh so close to me
i'd say i've found it, the magic key
come back home
come back home

Get on the first plane tonight
beat the bulls
to shed your plight
hide the car under the tarp
we'll live like criminals
we'll never be apart

I can't wait another day
I can't believe i let you get away
I guess i'm speechless, nothing to say
I miss you
yeah, I miss you

Get on the first plane tonight
beat the bulls
to shed your plight
hide the car under the tarp
we'll live like criminals
we'll never be apart

you've been gone too long
its time to come back home
I know its unfamiliar
I know you'd hate it
I know you'll hate it

You've been gone too long
don't leave me now
its time to come back home
don't stop listening
I know its unfamiliar
I'm singing this for you
I know you'd hate it
I know you hate it
I know you'll hate it
I know you hate it

Get on the first plane tonight
beat the bulls
to shed your plight
hide the car under the tarp
we'll live like criminals
we'll live like criminals
we'll live by breaking the rules
we'll never be apart

This is the beginning.

This is the beginning.
i have a feeling...
hm.